This is my first-time purchase the BTS merchandise in my life. I think during this quarantine period of the pandemic, I fall in love with BTS after I was watching their show of Bon Voyage Season 4 in New Zealand. After that, I can't stop to continue watching their shows include the show that still running, which is Run BTS. BTS makes my mood change slowly from anxiety to self-love. They really can make this world change positively little by little. Their stories, shows, and personalities are can make people feel motivated after we starting to know them. Everything is changing during this pandemic and I also feeling not myself anyone, but BTS help me to find myself back. I was feeling thankful to BTS. 

In early of this year, the new merchandise of BTS is release; which is BTS Winter Package 2021 in Gangwon. Since it's still pandemic and BTS stay in Korea, so this second Winter Package project is making in Gangwon, Korea that only 1 hour away from Seoul, Korea. This package makes me feel to buy it because of the purple pouch that includes in this package. It is so beautiful, so I can't stop thinking about that until I decide to buy it at the price of RM 259.66 that includes the shipping cost from Korea. For the price, I think it's affordable since I can't back to my second hometown at this moment. I wish that I can back to my second hometown after this pandemic is over. 

The BTS Winter Package 2021 in Gangwon includes the Pouch (13 inches with title Winter Package 2021 in Gangwon, army, and photo Wappen), Snowman Wappen (1 set with 7 BTS snowman), Photobook, Making DVD (about 107 mins), Photo Set 4x6, Mini Photo Box, Mini Poster Set, 6-cut Film Photo (Random – I got Kim Taehyung), Photocard (Random – I got Kim Taehyung), and Photo Sticker. 

Everything looks perfect with the five concepts in this 2021 Winter Package, which are Chapter 01, Winter Darkness; Chapter 02, First Spark; Chapter 03, Second Flare; Chapter 04, Third Flame; and Chapter 05, Winter Light. My favorite concept in this 2021 Winter Package is Chapter 01, Winter Darkness.

The last year 2020, I'm got manage to fulfill 2 of my Wishlist even that year is the toughest year for everyone. I was the plan to buy a new camera and Apple Watch Series 5 in 2019 but I postpone that plan because I have a Europe vacation with my family in November 2019. 

Then, early in 2020, I was decided to buy the new camera from Fujifilm x100v during the pre-order booking in February 2020. The cost of the Fujifilm x100v is RM 6,288 and I am entitled to get the Pre-Order Gifts which is an x-series shutter button, 32GB ultra-SD card, NP-W126S battery (2 pcs), PU leather strap, and 2 years warranty from Fujifilm. For me, that is a good deal because I want that camera in my life even, I'm not a professional photographer. I'm happy to make that decision, even though I'm can't go to travel during this pandemic. 

Then, my mom gives me the belated birthday gift which is Apple Watch Series 5 GPS 40mm Gold Aluminium Case with Pink Sand Sport Band. The Apple Watch Series 5 GPS 40mm cost is RM 1,749. I also decide to take the Machines Protection Plan POC for 730 days and that cost is RM 299. I feel so grateful for all these gifts that I manage to get for myself. Later, I will share my thoughts about the Fujifilm x100v and Apple Watch Series 5 GPS 40mm Gold Aluminium Case with Pink Sand Sport Band in another post.

When I think back to what was happen on last year, it's a tough year for everyone including myself. Now, we already in 2021 and we are survived thru the tough period. I hope this year, it's will be good again like our previous lifestyle before the pandemic begin. I admit during the quarantine period and every problem that I have to face during this pandemic, it's made me feel anxious dan less motivated. I also hard to find myself to become motivated and a positive person again. All my works become pending even I feeling hard to find time to do what's I like to do. Sometimes I feeling everything is pointless… until someday, I find the story motivation about BTS. At that moment, I think I'm slow like them and in other words, I'm a new ARMY. The first song like really makes me feel cheerful again is Dynamite from BTS and then, the new album BTS – BE. That new album makes me think, I'm not alone in this world especially during the pandemic and quarantine period. Everything looks tough but I have to admit this new normal. 

This year is the second year, that I have been celebrated my birthday during the pandemic. But I feel grateful to my Mama, who is always beside me even my life is up and down, especially during this pandemic. Nothing special during my birthday but I do have feeling grateful for the gift I received from my Mama and Jo Malone London. I also try to cook the Miyeokguk or seaweed soup by myself during my birthday. It's delicious for me. I think the last time I was cooking the seaweed soup on last 5 years ago. Even my Apple Watch Series 5 also show wish to me. It's cute and I like it so much. Because of the pandemic, we can't celebrate New Year but we can still celebrate it with our family and friends at home. I also found that my Apple Watch Series 5 show the New Year wish to me. It's something new for me. 

It's nothing much that I can do during the quarantine period, but I know that I have to try to practice feel grateful in every moment in my life even it's just a small matter. It does help me feel calm and I can relax my mind to not always thinks about negative especially when I saw the news about the pandemic situation. In these moments, I do watch the old program that is related to BTS. I admit that BTS does help me to find a way to love myself indirectly to thru this hard time and I like Min Yoongi's character among the BTS members. Thank you to BTS as 7 members because you guys really can make changes positively even in a small part of our life. I do hope the year 2021 will become more positive and we can back on our previous lifestyle before the pandemic, like the title of my post: The Light Will Rise Again, Life Goes On…

I think this the year 2020 is the toughest year for everyone in this world because of the pandemic. It gives a big impact on everyone, especially those who are working in the tourism line like me. I'm grateful that I still working in the same company even we're like the staff is trying to survive and help the company in a hard period. I try to always think positively and accept the new challenges but it's hardest for me. Sometimes, it makes me anxious even though I like to stay at home. But I can't run to think negatively especially about the situation pandemic every day. 

 

When most of my time is spent at home with my mom, I try to looking at the motivation and inspiration for me to stay thinking positive and strong meanwhile I'm lost. As a human, I can't run to face a hard time and always think about that. Suddenly, I'm feeling touching by the words they say to their fans. Most of the time, I'm crying when I read their speech as below; 

"If you're going through a rough time right now, don't forget that you're not alone. Don't let sadness get in the way of your life. I understand how you feel because I've been there before. You don't live forever so make these days of your life worth it. Don't be trapped in someone else dreams. Nothing is permanent in this world, not even our hard times, not even our pain. In every storm that happens, there's always a blue sky that comes afterward. As long as you feel pain, you're still alive. As long as make mistakes, you're still human. And as long as you keep trying, there is still hope. Be strong because things will get better soon. It may be stormy now but it can't rain forever. When life gives you a hundred reasons to give up. Show it that you have a thousand reasons to keep going. If you feel like you are losing everything, remember that trees lose their leaves every year and they still stand tall and wait for better days to come. Live life with no worries. You should always smile in life because a warm smile is the universal language of kindness. You're too young, don't let the world break you. Don't give up. Life goes on." 

 

Yes, I'm sure all ARMY will know about this speech because it's from BTS. I was feeling touching when I read this speech, especially during this pandemic. It makes me feel motivated and inspired after reading BTS's speech. BTS saves much life in this world. So I hope we can survive in this hard time. At the same time, I wish this pandemic is over soon so I can travel again and meet the great persons along my journey. Life goes on…

Look likes a few hours left before we say goodbye to the year 2019 and with a great welcome to the year 2020. When the time I see the number year of 2020, I feel unbelievable that the year 2020 is coming. Meanwhile, I'm a child in the past – I always imagine like this world has a flying car in the year 2020… it's okay. I was still grateful that I still alive and enjoy my life with lovely people surrounding me. 

Even though it's almost 3 years 3 months my mom lost her lovely husband and I lost my lovely father, but we still feeling tough without him in our life. In some situations, I feel the time is moving slowly but when on the last day of 2019, I feel the time is moving faster too. Time-to-time I have learned new things and at the same time, it's healing my heart too. 

In January 2019, I have two wonderful events; which are the Happy 7th Blog Anniversary and also my birthday month. I would like to say thank you for who are always support me until today. I'm appreciating it so much. I don't know how to describe it in the words. It does the third year I was celebrating my birthday without my father. I also get a special birthday prize from my mom, which is the birthday holiday with my mom in Seoul, Korea. I was sharing my birthday holiday in Seoul, Korea in my blog, from February until March 2019. 

In April 2019, I kept sharing the new K-Beauty products that I have been trying before this and I do the honest review based on my personal experience. I also share about the book that I have been finished reading it. 

On May 2019, I shared about my moods. At those moments, I was feeling annoyed, and furious because of the 'psycho guy' that always gives me a hard time in the office. Sometimes, my work's stress is not hard rather than I have to face him every day, I wish he will be gone from my life. Then, as always I was sharing my beauty and book reviews too. 

In June 2019, I just finished unpacking my luggage after back from Seoul, Korea on last January 2019. Then, I have been share with the Modern Hanbok that I bought at Insadong. I did not think that I will have my Hanbok. It's really expensive for me but it's so beautiful too. I love it so much. Not to forget, I do share about the beauty and book reviews in June until July 2019.

In August 2019, I feel that I need the Reset Day or know as the short vacation. I do feel tired of working all day. It's time for me to take rest for a while. Then, I was planning to go short vacation to Genting Highland, Pahang with my mom and sister. We're enjoying this short trip and also release from our stress of working. I do happy to share what's stationery I do love to buy while I'm traveling to Seoul, Korea. I never miss spending my money on just some of the cute stationery in Seoul, Korea. Last year, my favorite Fujifilm camera X-T10 is not functioned well because of cold weather, what's I mean the temperature just around 10ºC to 15ºC at Sydney and Melbourne, Australia. Then, I try to fix it with updating the firmware even it does not promise the problem will be solved. I just hope the evening will be fine, because I do bring this camera along my trip to Western Europe in November until December 2019 with my mom and sister.

In September 2019, I join the event of Aldo Malaysia at KLCC with my mom and we're do enjoy and fun at that moment. I kept sharing the new K-Beauty products that I have been trying before this and I do the honest review based on my personal experience. I also share about the book that I have been finished reading it. 

In October 2019, I kept sharing the new K-Beauty products that I have been trying before this and I do the honest review based on my personal experience. I also share about the book that I have been finished reading it. Another one more thing, I do share about my latest update about my progress of study buck Korean language after a few months. It's tough because I'm studying by myself and me also hard to find the extra time to study the Korean language but I try my best to do it.

In November 2019, I sharing about the Lifestyle of Self-Care that I have been practice lately to improve the quality of my life to be a better person. I also share my personal story of Journal – Alhamdulillah, which I have been grateful for in my life. 

In December 2019, I was taking 3 weeks to break from blogging because I have been a holiday with my mom and sister to the destinations that I have dreamed about that since I'm a child. Now, my dream trip has come true. I have been travel to Western Europe, like England (London), France (Paris), Belgium (Brussels), Netherlands (Amsterdam), Germany (Frankfurt), and Switzerland (Zurich + Mt. Titles). I will update these travel dairies in early January 2020. Then, I kept sharing the new K-Beauty products that I have been trying before this and I do the honest review based on my personal experience. I also share about the book that I have been finished reading it.

There are some stories throughout the year 2019. Some of it is wonderful memories and some of it is painful memories to me but I know my life's stories do not stop yet. I still have a lot of things to do on my bucking list. Although this, I hope the future will be bright and more positive vibes in the year 2020. I also would like to wish "Happy New Year" to all of you and always be happy and positive.